extreme spontaneity

i don't know a lot of things in life.

i can't figure out how to upload pictures from my camera to my computer. i don't know how to change my homepage from that stupid one we have to use to get internet in the dorm. i honestly don't think i know how to go to bed early or use time management whatsoever. luckily we have google or i'd be lost for most of life.

thinking back on my first year of college i had a great time. i met so many new people and made so many new friends. but then when i compare my experience to other people's i wonder if i did it all right. i wonder if there was more that i was "supposed" to do and experience in my freshman year. theres all these things that you're supposed to do in college and i feel like i have so little time i need to make sure i fit it all in there.

but really, what we're supposed to do according to other people's standards shouldn't matter that much. i want to do things because i want to do them...not because i think i should. okay, now of course God has a whole plan lined up for my college experience too and i am so thankful for that or else i would be completely lost, but I'm talking about the in between stuff, the stuff that, yeah, God probably wants us to do, but if we don't go out there and do it ourselves it's not gonna happen. i'm talking about the spontaneous fun stuff that makes memories.
so here's to that
i'm going to be spontaneous next year, or even better, this summer.
if you talk to most people that know me well they'll probably tell you that i am spontaneous so i guess i have a head start. but. maybe ill go for extreme spontaneity. that's my goal...YOLO!

so life in the fast lane. living on the wire. changing it up. it's all gonna happen, just gotta make sure things don't get too crazy

freshman year

ok so i lied im not really feeling sleep right now...but when am i ever? except during the morning of course. i really do think I've converted to nocturnal most of the time....its kind of annoying actually.

but my life right now is kinda chaotic. i just moved out of the dorm at baylor earlier this week, then i drove to az with all my stuff, took it out of the car and repacked in a day then flew to indiana last night to start my summer school class this morning.
a busy week for sure.
i don't know if I've even really processed yet that my freshman year is over. next time i go to waco ill be getting ready to move into my new duplex with my 5 other roomies. I'm pumped for sure and really think it will be a great year but I'm going to feel so grown up..living in a place with no one to watch out for me...adults i mean. no rules no CLs no parents. i will really be on my own (except for the roomies i guess but who knows if ill ever actually live alone)
anyways a lot to process.

but overall i had a really great freshman year! so much fun and adventure-filled! i really didn't even realize how much id miss it until i started thinking about leaving. i didn't realize how close id gotten to so many people there till i thought about not being with them for 4 months. i know i sound like a baby...4 months isn't really all that long but it is in college terms! and now i only have 3 years of college left!? haha i feel like i want to stay there forever. and i know it will just get better and better :)
i couldn't be happier with my experiences at baylor this year and want to thank everyone who made me feel so welcome there :) i think that baylor is the perfect place for me to grow and learn and i can't wait to see what else God has in store for me there. i feel like I've already learned a lot about myself but i have a lot of growing to do also.

man i feel like this blog is all over the place right now..sorry about that.
but in the mean time i want to be ready and willing for God to use and grow me now :) 4 months is a long summer and even though mine is already busy and planned out i know God has fun things in store

miracles

so as i was about to go to bed tonight...take note that its 2am here now. i was reading matthew 9 and started thinking how crazy all these miracles Jesus did were! now i'm not a Bible expert and i am not trying to give a sermon here or anything, but i think a lot of the time we just brush over those miracles and things because we've (or at least i have) heard them so many times. like "oh yeah Jesus raised someone from the dead...He does that.." or maybe don't even think of it at all. but it's amazing! and it should be! because he's God! so i mean obvs he'll be able to do some crazy stuff but he was human too! and with our faith we're supposed to be able to "move mountains" or all this crazy other stuff....so how small is my faith? idk it's definitely interesting and i think something that could use a lot more thought, but i'll leave you all with that as i continue to ponder as i drift off to sleep.

speaking of sleep... i always go to bed hoping i will have some really fun crazy dream where i fly around and go on some cool adventure but it rarely happens...or maybe i just forget them. but here's to hoping you all have some crazy cool dreams in your future whether you fulfill them in your sleep or in life :)

goodnight world.

this was a blog for my sociology project but now that I'm done with the class, I'm thinking I'm gonna stick with it. follow along if you wanna hear more about my adventures through college at Baylor. :) i can't promise it'll be the most entertaining blog.....but i can promise that i WILL have adventures...and will write about them from time to time. I'm living life intentionally, choosing Jesus, choosing joy, being the change, loving life, livin young, wild, and free...and apparently livin with lots of trite aphorisms, too.

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4